Checking In

The best laid plans… 2019 was a big year for me. I left a job where I was incredibly successful but beyond miserable for a new position that I love; I bought and moved into a new apartment in a new neighborhood, creating a home that I adore; and I took the trip of a lifetime, meeting some of the best people I know who I am so lucky to now call friends.

I went in to 2020 excited. I felt like things were finally in place and more than that, I trusted myself to navigate any challenges that came my way. I never imagined a challenge like this.

The past few weeks have been a lot. I don’t think there is anyone who hasn’t been touched by Covid-19 in some way and if there is, unfortunately it won’t remain that way for long.

I have been silent because I didn’t know what to say, but writing has always been my release and I feel compelled to document this moment because we are truly living history. Still, I don’t have answers, only thoughts and they change rapidly.

Today I am focusing on the positive. The sun in shining and the trees are in bloom. In some ways it feels like a cruel joke. A beautiful spring day that we can’t fully enjoy. The world becoming beautiful while mankind is being ravaged. Allergies starting, causing us to second guess if your symptoms are Covid-19 or pollen, having to go to the drugstore for medication when all you want and should do is to stay home.

Still, the sun and blossoms give me hope. I’m lucky to be somewhere where I can go out for a hike and that always brings me peace. I’m lucky to be with my parents and the company keeps me sane and feeling safe. I’m lucky to have all that I need. So much is uncertain and I have never been good with that. I’m working hard on staying present and finding joy in the little things.

How are you doing? What are you watching, reading, cooking?